Keeping the Faith

I wrote this really awesome post yesterday, but as I went to send it my wireless connection went down. Lets see if I can recreate what I WAS going to post:

I've been a Christian for a long while. I had grown up reading scripture and being told that God loved me and He created me in His image. I fully believe that. I know He loves me and created me the way I am. And therefore since I knew God cared about me, I had the idea that He loved me however I was,  and that its ok to eat whatever I wanted and weigh as much as I do. I have come to realize that He in fact does care and wants me to remember that my body is a temple, and to treat it well...in whatever capacity. This is my motivation. My motivation is not to be considered more "pretty" or to fit a stereotype, but to present myself with pride...as a Child of God.

Also, there are so many weddings coming up, and I have the HONOR of being part of four...whether it be as a bridesmaid or greeter, I am so excited and cannot wait to celebreate with them on their BIG DAY! :)

Love,

B

God is on my side in this one! I looked at my fall grades and I got all B's! I was expecting some C's so this is fantastic! I was so worried about them since this quarter was a nightmare, but it turned out to be ok...class wise. I mean, I have no clue how I did so well in American Writers, I got a C on the midterm and then the final essay was a 3pg (supposed to be 5 pg) POJ paper. For those of you who dont know the acronym..POJ=Piece of Junk. Well, that was a huge relief. And oh yeah, the exam I missed, I will be able to retake it when winter quarter begins, and the "I" for incomplete will be changed to a "B" ---I hope! Yay, I knew the storm would blow over, but in the midst of it...it feels like you won't come out alive.

This break is amazing so far. I've just been playin with Janie, spending time with family and Daniel, and hung out with people that I missed.

UC folks! There will be a co-ed, ADX/STE Bible Study next quarter, on Tuesday nights led by Mike Jorgensen and yours truly!

Ok so yeah, I'm gonna peace out...love you all...***MUAH***

I am taking the History of Cincinnati this quarter, and it is depressing. I always kind of knew some of the things since I was born and raised here, but just the confermation of my ideas...is a jab to the heart. We were talking about Union Terminal today and how much it really was a bust. It was constructed in 1929, to unite the various trains that went through Cincinnati. Considering the time frame, it was designed to fix a major problem of having train stations at other ends of town...when in reality, the passenger train was soon to be a thing of the past...leaving way for the automobile to take over. So, this really amazing and very expensive building was pretty much built for minimal use. So what did they do with it? First they made a FREAKING MALL! WTF. wow. And those amazing mosiacs on the walls...a bunch were moved to the airport. A lot of Cincinnati companies in the scenes...displaced to CVG...a SUBURB of Cincinnati. gah.

There are so many city problems and what did Cincinnati do? Built suburbs. Wow, that is a great solution.

Not.

Anyway, good Cincinnati news....we have Mark Mallory as our beloved Mayor. Yessss! I'm excited to see what he does.

Update on me:

My mommy was recently diagnosed with breast cancer, and had her right one removed. She is doing well.
I love my Daniel!
ADChi may get a house next year!
Starbucks is so fun, I love working there.
I dropped Physical Anthropology.

That is all...I believe.

I have to be honest. My recent postings have been a little down and stuff, but it was how I was feeling, and since this is a journal, it was the right place to do it. I just need to find a way to balance things out better...or cut something out so I dont shut down and drop everything. I am doing much better with school though, that is a plus. Although the money is a nice factor, I may cut out work at Brueggers. The reason I got the job was because I thought Starbucks wasnt hiring me back and I need SOME kind of job. But now that I am in full swing and back at the Bucks, to work the extra time at Brueggers is getting harder on me...especially this week...I work Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday...and I close and open on Fri-Sat...which is really kind of depressing considering midterms are approaching and papers are going to be due soon.

phew.

Oh well, Dan and I are doing very well, that is a plus. We went to his brother's wedding in Lima this past weekend, and that was nice to get away. I got to hang out with my future in-laws, which was good to get to know them better, especially Tom and Amber...they are great, and I love them to death! We had a very interesting night with Grady Ashby..he and Dan were sharing a room the night of the wedding since Mike was long gone on his honeymoon..Grady is such a funny guy! You know, it was really cool to me because all of the people there were out of college, or in grad school. And it was just a different, more fun dynamic. Plus, I usually get along well with people older than me and in different places in their lives than I. It was refreshing I'd say.

I am getting tired of having my puppy. I have to say, I absolutely love her to death, but its so super hard having a pup in college. Many people warned me of it, but I didnt see it until now. When I am gone for a period of time and my parents or Dans parents watch her, she is spoiled in some way and so when she comes back with me, its hard for her to adjust back to our routine and what not. The other night she whined and whined and WHINED unceasingly ALL night. And I'm not exaggerating! It was nuts, I even started crying and then I cried out to Jesus to make it stop so that I could function in the morning. It finally stopped around 5...great...we get up at 6 to go potty. ugh. So yeah, she is staying with Dan right now--(and for the rest of the week)...I need to finish my schoolwork and get things done without worrying about her so much.

Alright, I'm going to go meet Tabitha and Maple for lunch.

I got off work early today, that was a really nice treat. And as I was walking home I started calling people--to maybe get lunch or study together. However, God chimed in and said, "I gave you this time for a reason, please use it wisely." I completely stopped and agreed. I havent spent some time in quiet with God in quite some time. Life has just been so much lately...a lot of running around, bein crazy. I need to listen to the verse in Isaiah that says, "be still and know that I am God."

Be still and know that I am God.

Wow, that is a good reminder. Ok, I think Im gonna go lay down, and rest in Christ.

Peace out,
Beth

P.S. My little is so freakin HOT!

Lets see...

Lots of homework, I love ADChi, I work at Starbucks and Brueggers.

Life is ok.

No seriously...I am having such a hard time this year. I had an awesome summer with intense and intentional spiritual growth, and now I feel so completely removed from that it is nuts. I was totally immersed in the church/christian scene this summer, and unfortunately, I think I need that in order to grow and fully strengthen my relationship with Christ. It makes me sad. Thursdays is usually our time for Bible Study, but as things have been working out, we've had to keep cancelling...which is really hard, not to mention Dan has been working Sunday mornings so church has been a challenge recently too. I think I am just really thirsty, see the water and am preventing myself to take it, drink and enjoy it. The problem is, Im not sure why...

Anyway, that was a real update. Its straight from the heart.